well i came back from chalet !

mostly had a great fun with :
weili, edrei, yinlan, cai er[ yinlan's sis], kaijun, joyceY, seewoon, nguanhan, jiaming, chiensiew, vivien AND other t1 avains !!

well, on the last day, as only weili, edrei, yinlan, cai er, kaijun and i stayed, we were really getting cosy in the chalet! we had a talk and played mahjong till 54o in the morning.
it was really tiring for weili, edrei and kaijun as they had to go to school the next day!

thanks, guys!

then i went back to band room yesterday to do a final clean up.
it was just sunning and re-packing the umbrellas and other stuffs.

afterwards went to do chinese project and went to huan ghee's house to watch pirates 2.
didn't watch ending as went to play a soccer game with weilun.
funfunFUN !
haha.
quite addicted to it though i am a noob at it.



i began to find hope in out friendship, once again.
i were willing to try again, thinking that all would be fine.
yet,
again.
i was disappointed again.
i felt that your social circle is too extensive.
or is it just my problem?
i hope not.

i am just so exasperated and frustrated with everything recently.
i shouldn't be brooding over these things, but i just do.
what should i do, i do not even know.

thank you, weilun!
for being the one beside me when i am feeling depressed ya?
though you get me irritated at times and i feel that you are insensitive to the people around you but you were there.
that meant so much more to me.
thanks for talking to me, and giving advices.
love you!

many a times, people come and go.
never caring and loving enough to be cared and loved back.
let's all be the first to be there for some one before grumbling that they were not there for you ya?
i will try to be there for everyone i care and love, but it is simply impossible.


rather than expecting me to be there, can someone be here for me?
i'm sick of being initiative in relationships, be it friendships or whatever.
what can i say? i am a human too.

i am so looking forward to o1 chalet!
missmissMISS you guys!!
i hope this will be a great chance to repair what is damage to re-find what is lost.
yet, perhaps the things we lost just couldn't be found again as we had each found it with other people.